生命敘事=life narrative; 性別認同=gender identity; 佛教與性別=Buddhism and gender; 佛教倫理=Buddhist ethics
摘要
本論文透過生命敘事的方式，深入探討我在成長過程中如何探索性別認同與佛教信仰的交織。藉由生命中的經歷，特別是在家庭、求學、感情和學佛這幾個主要階段，詳細描述了我如何面對性向與信仰的衝突，並在這過程中尋找到屬於自己的解脫之道。 在我的敘事中，重新回顧自我在各個生命階段中的成長經歷，特別是面對家庭期望與社會偏見時的內心掙扎。透過這些經歷，我逐漸在佛法中找到平靜和力量，並學會如何在信仰和性向之間找到平衡。佛教的核心教義，如慈悲、平等和緣起論，對我的理解和接納自我有著深遠的影響。 本文也討論我與母親之間的關係，如何從初期的衝突走向理解與支持，並通過佛法的學習，逐漸形成彼此之間的共融和互助。這段過程中，我體會到「愛」與「理解」是解決一切衝突的關鍵，並且成為同志佛教徒讓我更加堅定地追求信仰與自我認同。藉由這篇論文，我希望能夠分享自身的故事，幫助更多人在面對信仰和性向的挑戰時找到內心的平靜與力量，並在愛與信仰中獲得真正的幸福。 This thesis explores into the intersection of gender identity and Buddhist faith in my personal development through a life narrative approach. By examining key life experiences, particularly within the stages of family, education, relationships, and Buddhist practice, I explore how I navigated the conflicts between sexual orientation and religious beliefs, ultimately discovering a path to personal liberation. In my narrative, I revisit various life stages, highlighting the inner struggles faced when dealing with family expectations and societal prejudices. These experiences gradually led me to find peace and strength within the teachings of Buddhism, learning how to balance faith and sexuality. Core Buddhist doctrines such as compassion, equality, and the theory of dependent origination profoundly influenced my understanding and acceptance of myself. The thesis also discusses the evolving relationship with my mother, from initial conflict to mutual understanding and support. Through the study of Buddhism, we developed a relationship characterized by integration and mutual aid. This journey underscored that "love" and "understanding" are crucial to resolving conflicts, and embracing both my faith and sexual orientation strengthened my pursuit of self-identity and spirituality. Through this thesis, I aim to share my story to help others facing similar challenges between faith and sexuality find inner peace and strength, ultimately achieving true happiness through love and faith.
