A narrative approach is used in this study. The target is the researcher herself. All the jottings and informal essays written in the past ten years are employed as the data to probe the meaning of meditation practice in her life process. Three inquires have been made in this study:（1）What internal phenomena have emerged in the researcher''s life process caused by the training of the contemplation in meditation practice;（2）What influences have been made in the researcher''s life process by the internal phenomena;（3）What is the meaning of these phenomena and influences in the researcher''s life process. The Heuristic research methodology is used in this study as the way of analysis focusing on personal experiences and insights. By using the narrative approach, the author describes her life experiences from the aspects of her own physical sensations, social role meaning, empirical and transcendental ego, time, and so forth to form the thought pattern of conscious development. The author has tried to interpret and comprehend the meaning of the afore-mentioned in the framework of religious psychology, religious phenomenology, the theory of psychosocial development, Carl G. Jung''s analytical psychology and transpersonal psychology.
The study constitutes 5 lived-experiences. Through the stages of these lived-experiences and read literature, the researcher has realized that meditation practice makes layers of progress. The study has found that the practice of meditation in the researcher''s life process is intervening and changing. The author is also aware that, while doing the study, the writing of the theses itself is acting in a therapeutic role. The process of storytelling has intervened in the author''s personal life and changes have taken place. The meaning of the completion of this study is that the author has not only explored her life experience and explained all the phenomena but also, in the process of narration, developed a deeper understanding of life and of herself. From writing this life story, the author has found her own multi-facets, each a well-established path. Thus this work of narration has become a meaningful process in the reflection of a changing life. The researcher is the storyteller and the interpreter at the same time in the study. This is a character in a self-narrative approach, but it is a limitation, too. In the study, religious experiences and psychology-related theories are used as a way of analysis. To comprehend more about the study, using Buddhist theory of Consciousness-Only can be another direction in the near future.
