Part One: Boned, Minced, Reduced by Half 1 1. Retreat Doing? 3 2. Religious Roots 14 3. Nina, the Evil Kitchen Elf 19 4. Meditating Not 24 5. Insight 33 6. Shhhh 40 7. Living Dharma 49 8. They Used to Call Me God, but They'll Never Call Me Buddha 57 9. Soup 64 10. Kitchen Talk 72 11. Jizo Ceremony 78 12. Impermanence 83 Part Two: Don't Expect Applause 99 13. Restaurant Voices 101 14. My Short but Violent Career As a Chef 104 15. Transcending Dualism White Whipping Egg Whites into High, Stiff Peaks 140 16. Relaxing the Mind 148 17. Bread 153 18. Naming 156 19. A Cup of Tea 159 20. Dzogchenopa among the Presbyterians 168 21. On Having a Teacher 176
